Ah, I had the hardest day in a long while today. I finally could say goodbye to both my father and older brother. I haven’t cried in days and it felt like I was relieving so much stress and sorrow, my head hurts so much, there’s a constant pounding inside that doesn’t stop but I strangely feel better in some ways.
One side of me didn’t need to be reminded that it was real, and yet, like I said, I do feel better now. I’m not quite sure I actually do have anything to say here, but I felt like writing a bit. I should probably leave it to that and try to get my spirits up to spend a good night, still.